It's a beautiful day! About to go hit the gym, but before I do, I just wanted to share some of my thoughts.
It's hard when things start to come to an end, and we see this finality coming and want to avoid it. For me, the semester coming to an end marks a farewell to some of the most wonderful people I have ever met. But if we take the opportunity that is presented to us, with God we can use these times to re-evaluate and see how far we have come.
For me personally, I have come incredibly far in the past year. My life has turned 360 degrees. I am so in love with the Lord and with life, in a way I never thought I would be. This morning for the first time, I used the gift of prophecy intentionally to speak over a close friend, and was just so incredibly blessed that God used me to speak to her in that way. It is the most incredible feeling there is, just to hear God speaking over someone and feel His love for them radiate through you. Of course it's not my place to even hint at what the Lord had to say to her, but I am so incredibly blessed that God is willing to use someone as sinful as me to bring light to others.
I'm fighting hard to be a better person, and I think that my feeling inferior to other believers is something that I can overcome with the help of the Lord. I am not a "holy" person. But the truth is, not one of us truly is and the Lord is willing to use every one of us to complete His plan and His vision.
I'm looking forward to getting more involved with the CU, and pray that even after my dear friends leave me I would not be afraid to go alone and make some new friends. God has been using the people around me to drag me kicking and screaming out of my comfort zone recently, and scary as it is at the time, long may it continue. I have experienced so much that I would never have seen sitting alone in my room.
At the risk of rambling, I'll leave it there for today, but just know how loved you are. Life is good. God is brilliant.
Friday, 26 April 2013
Monday, 22 April 2013
Fear
Really got a lot from today's devotional's snippet on faith in the face of fear- it seems particularly relevant in the wake of the disasters in America and world wide last week. It can be so hard to admit that we feel afraid, and this is a great encouragement, pointing out to us that we do not achieve anything by denying fear, instead we must accept it and conquer it through faith in the one for whom nothing is impossible.
Personally, feeling pretty good- we had a great event on Sat evening called Encounter, for young adults, in Stirling. Really felt God moving for the first time in a long time (def the first time since the doc put me on the pills- a huge relief!), and felt really encouraged to embrace God's gifts- both spiritual and practical- stop hiding the light beneath a bushel kind of thing.
Had some challenging words from a good friend r.e. gossiping an falseness- hard to hear the truth sometimes! But thankfully spoken in love and avoided an argument over it- hard to accept when someone is right in these circumstances, but important spiritual growth I think!
Missing home dearly, especially my little niece, and the comfort of knowing I have somewhere to live whether the money comes in or not! I appreciate the ongoing prayer of those around me regarding my finances as things are particularly tight at the moment, although I trust God completely this can be quite daunting!!
Really encouraged by Romans 8:37 today-
No! In all these things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
Blessings! x
Personally, feeling pretty good- we had a great event on Sat evening called Encounter, for young adults, in Stirling. Really felt God moving for the first time in a long time (def the first time since the doc put me on the pills- a huge relief!), and felt really encouraged to embrace God's gifts- both spiritual and practical- stop hiding the light beneath a bushel kind of thing.
Had some challenging words from a good friend r.e. gossiping an falseness- hard to hear the truth sometimes! But thankfully spoken in love and avoided an argument over it- hard to accept when someone is right in these circumstances, but important spiritual growth I think!
Missing home dearly, especially my little niece, and the comfort of knowing I have somewhere to live whether the money comes in or not! I appreciate the ongoing prayer of those around me regarding my finances as things are particularly tight at the moment, although I trust God completely this can be quite daunting!!
Really encouraged by Romans 8:37 today-
No! In all these things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
Blessings! x
Friday, 12 April 2013
Disconnected
I'm having a horrible day.
I have an essay write- which is fine, I'm at uni, I need to do work some time!- but also I'm having massive money issues and it's super hard to concentrate. The job I thought was in the bag, in God's plan, for next year, is gone- I didn't get it. My money has run out again. I have no idea how I'm going to pay the rest of my rent, and it's really hard to trust God when I can't see a clear way out- and the way out I could see is gone. The one person I want to see, who I know would pray with me, is not here and I just want to scream.
God, I need you. I need you to connect with me, show yourself to me, because I can't do this alone.
I have an essay write- which is fine, I'm at uni, I need to do work some time!- but also I'm having massive money issues and it's super hard to concentrate. The job I thought was in the bag, in God's plan, for next year, is gone- I didn't get it. My money has run out again. I have no idea how I'm going to pay the rest of my rent, and it's really hard to trust God when I can't see a clear way out- and the way out I could see is gone. The one person I want to see, who I know would pray with me, is not here and I just want to scream.
God, I need you. I need you to connect with me, show yourself to me, because I can't do this alone.
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