Disconnected

I'm having a horrible day. 

I have an essay write- which is fine, I'm at uni, I need to do work some time!- but also I'm having massive money issues and it's super hard to concentrate. The job I thought was in the bag, in God's plan, for next year, is gone-  I didn't get it. My money has run out again. I have no idea how I'm going to pay the rest of my rent, and it's really hard to trust God when I can't see a clear way out- and the way out I could see is gone. The one person I want to see, who I know would pray with me, is not here and I just want to scream. 

God, I need you. I need you to connect with me, show yourself to me, because I can't do this alone.