Bewildered

Feeling a little odd just now. I'm excited to get back down to Stirling, but worried that I won't have money to see me through the semester. I'll miss everyone, but I'm ready to go home now. 

There's too much going on in my head at the moment. I can't think straight. I need to focus, on losing weight and on studying and on clearing my stuff out. I have no intention of coming back before the easter break at the start of April. There are people I'll miss more than I should, and I'm worried my Mum will miss me a lot. 

I'm just tired I guess. There are too many distractions in the world. I want to focus on God and His plan for me, but there's always something going on, vying for my attention. I guess I need to pray into it and work on it. I want to feel alive again.