I guess it's been a while since I made a post. I just haven't wanted to. I could make every excuse to myself about not having the time, more important things to do...but it's all the same. It's the same as why I've hardly prayed, or spoken to anyone from home. I just don't want to.
I'm having fun, don't get me wrong- I've made such fabulous friends and it's wonderful living here. But I'm getting ill again, and the money issue is getting bigger than I can cope with. I don't know how I'm going to pay my rent, and it's getting harder to and it over to God every time. I'm going to the Doctor as soon as I can get an appointment to discuss the fact that my "happy pills" just aren't helping as much as they used to. I've had soe bad days recently- I've been listless and mopey and more than I ever have before, anxious. Things that I would normally laugh off have made me freak out. Silly things really. Please do pray for me if you can. In the meantime, I need to get some discipline back and see if by talking to God every day and getting some real help, I can change my situation.
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